A thought that has plagued me my whole life is not being good enough to receive the things the Lord wants for me. It ate me up inside during that period when I wanted children but they weren't coming. It eats at me now when I examine my heart and find my desires not what I would like them to be. I've had a lot of tears this morning, thinking about the perfection I expect in myself, and how I put that pressure on my beautiful daughter who is already good, but believes, through my erroneous teaching, her good isn't good enough. Accomplishment worthy of recognition, pure efficiency in your day, those are the goal. She's eight.

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Thank goodness for the reminders of the scriptures - weakness is something God gives us. It's not weakness because we are screw ups and have distances ourselves from God. 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 "lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh...and he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness."  Paul saw the third heaven. We believe in three heavens in our faith, the third heaven would be the Celestial Kingdom, it's the highest, and it's where God dwells. Paul saw all this, and then he tells us about his weaknesses. I think it must be Satan telling us that we can't receive the personal revelation we crave and long for. I imagine the weakness Paul speaks of is physical, but I consider my physical weaknesses moral failings. I don't think I'm alone in this either. We could always do more and be better with our bodies, just like in anything. I think it's the 11th verse of Chapter 13 I will try to focus on today - "Finally, brethren, farewell. Be perfect (in Christ), be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace: and the God of love and peace shall be with you."